[We do not Forgive]

At work is where i sit at the point of starting this blog.. and yet again i can feel the need to stop slacking off.. yet i just cant seem to want to bother with the task i have ahead of me. I wont continue with that thought because i dont really want to repeat myself too much.

I will cut to a scene from my weekend... or maybe a few scenes for that matter. Anon meeting went well all in all.. i was invited to go to a party in Banyo with jordan, krys, jess and adam.. and decided to take some of the anon boys with me. 3 came which was awesome.. and from the time we had spent together.. we had a good time. The night brought me a little closer to Krys... and i wont say anymore than that incase someone i know ends up reading these thoughts.. but afterwards.. im left feeling awkward and confused for some reason.. and what i beleive it may be.. is the feeling of "i wanted affection more than anything.. and i got it.. but thats all i wanted"

To go ahead and judge myself.. i feel that is a terrible way to feel but i cant get rid of this gut feeling. its almost like i know she will want a relationship.. and i cant seem to get close to her in that way. I think there are a few things in my head telling me my directions but i cant quite hear them properly. I guess i shall do things the old fashioned way.. just flow with it.. and just see what happens.. it will all work out in the end.

with not much more to add other than i had a great saturday with the anons and femanons.. i hope to do it all again soon.